Hi! I’m Alive! Little update on life for you :)

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Long time no talk, I know. I hate going on MIA spells from YouTube and Blogging, and I know doing that without any warning is really lame of me, so I apologize.


Long story short, These past 2 weeks have been very long and very, very stressful. I don’t mean to bore anyone with details, but I basically ended a 7 year relationship (for the best and I am fine), had to pack up and move all of my belongings out of my apartment within a week, find a company that can move and store 95% of my belongings until I find a new place (and was incredibly overcharged for it), drive a 16 hour trip back to Arizona with two cats (one of which got carsick twice, so that was fun), blah blah blah.

I am just now getting settled in enough to focus back on youtube and blogging. I’m staying at a friends condo that isn’t used 80% of the year, and still have to figure out where a good place to film is, along with finding some equipment to use to film (lights and such.. everything is packed with the movers because I couldn’t fit much in my car for the drive). Fingers crossed that by next week I will be ready to go and be able to post videos and blogs back on a regular schedule.

I’ve been pretty quiet on Facebook and verrry quiet on Twitter (I was a twitter maniac!) but I’ve been trying to be more active on Instagram. My username is xSparkage if you wanna keep up with me :)

Anyways, so this post isn’t entirely text, here are a few pictures from my trip home :)


Can you guess which one vommed twice? (Hint- its not the one that LOOKS sick, lol. thats her bored face!)


They ended up climbing in the bigger carrier together. My cats are so photogenic.


The hotel we stopped at had a very strange waffle Iron.. I couldn’t tell what it is until the waffle was made. Good ol’ Texas!


This was a weird gas station/touristy store in the middle of nowhere that was made to look like it was fake.. but it really was that big inside! So goofy haha



Also, I thought I’d update you with a (really terrible) picture showing my new hair! I got it cut SUPER short a few weeks ago, a la Emma Watson. When I dyed my hair brown back in February, I reaaallly screwed it up (thanks to being impulsive and stupid, not getting it done professionally and not using any fillers, etc) and decided that I’d rather have short, healthy hair than longer hair that feels and looks terrible. It’s quite a change for me (never had hair this short!) but I am really loving it. It is so so so easy to style and maintain, it feels and looks healthy and shiny, and it’ll be great with the AZ summer heat :) Ideally I’d love for it to grow out more in the front and be like Gennifer Goodwin’s hair (I’ve been watching Once Upon A Time, kinda obsessed with the show and in LOVE with her pixie!) but like I said before, because of how damaged my hair was it was easier to just get a fresh start.


Okay, now that you are up to speed I hope you understand my absence the past few weeks!

See you soon :)


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  1. Caitlin

    April 19, 2012 at 2:48 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear that! You look awesome, and I know you are strong and brave enough to get through this. I’m sure the shorter hair will feel so much better in the oven-like heat of Arizona, and it shows off your piercings more. :) I wish you the best with this huge change, and you certainly deserve a youtube/blogging break so you can adjust to everything. 

  2. K8theCurst

    April 19, 2012 at 2:50 pm

    Thanks for the update Leesha! It’s good to read that you’re doing well. Good luck with the life changes – you know you have your readers for support. :)

  3. Hautebeautygirl

    April 19, 2012 at 3:13 pm

    My stomach just fell out of my butt!! I was not expecting that news at all. If I’ve learned anything about you is that you are a strong and confident woman and I know you will be just fine. I just hope you aren’t put off on Texas and come to visit every now and then. Love you Leesha!

  4. Nena E.

    April 19, 2012 at 3:33 pm

    Aww Leesha! It sucks that you’re going through all that mess and stress but if it’s for the best then I guess it’s just fine. That’s how you handle a break up, sucking it up and moving on (and out lol) and especially, being quiet about it, no need for drama, it’s your life and I think it’s easier to handle this type of situations when you keep it to yourself. I wish you the very best in this new stage ! Much lovesies <3.

  5. Talia

    April 19, 2012 at 4:10 pm

    Glad your still alive girl! You’re a strong girl! Long relationships are the hardest to end and it def takes a confident and strong little lady to go thro them! I’m here for you!

  6. Janine Learner

    April 19, 2012 at 4:25 pm

    Sorry to hear you’ve been going through such an upheavel (that doesnt look like it’s spelled right but I can’t be bothered to check). You’re completely awesome and I’m sure where-ever life takes you next, you’ll make the most of it. Good luck with everything.

    And oooh I’m completely obsessed with Once Upon a Time too. I think Ginnifer Goodwin’s hair is gorgeous and I had my daughter’s hair cut pixie-ish like that too, she’s a tomboy and hated it long so off it all came. Everyone said how “brave” I was to do that and I kept thinking “it’s just hair, it grows back”. She looks so cute and it’s so easy to take care of.

  7. Mimi Gay

    April 19, 2012 at 4:26 pm

    Leesha! I hope you are ok. I understand, I had to end a 5 year one and move out. It was the hardest thing I ever did. Glad you are back, you rock! And glad you got to keep the kitties:)

  8. lexiwho

    April 19, 2012 at 4:44 pm

    So sorry to hear you’ve been going through so much. Glad to hear you’re getting through it okay and moving forward. Stay strong and I’ll be here when you’re able to get back to it. Focus on yourself right now, people with a heart will understand what you’re going through. 

  9. Chelsea Deem

    April 19, 2012 at 4:45 pm

    Sorry to hear about the breakup, I hope you’re doing well.

    On another note, your cats are GORGEOUS! What a perfectly snubbed nose! Haha. Welcome back to AZ, by the way. I think the news said 100+ F today. Yikes! I plan on staying inside.

  10. Sophiehemmings

    April 19, 2012 at 5:01 pm

    oh so sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough time, but glad you’re alright :) your hair looks stunning too :) we’ve missed you! xxxxx

  11. Daintynymph

    April 19, 2012 at 5:11 pm

    I think my cat is your cats’ sister. She’s the same black fur, face shape, amber eyes, and white splotch on the chest! I love it.

  12. Salem101

    April 19, 2012 at 5:19 pm

    So sorry to hear about your breakup. ): But you seem like a strong person, and we know you can get through it. By the way, your cats are gorgeous (I have a cat that looks just like them) and so does your hair! Hope you’re feeling better.

  13. Erikasvanity

    April 19, 2012 at 5:20 pm

    I love you so much Leesha. U’re such an inspiration to me. You’re so strong, intelligent, beautiful, funny girl. I’ve missed your lil icon on my Twitter and u’re face on my YouTube but I know everyone needs time with this kind of stuff. 
    Let me just say ur hair looks AMAZING! I love it! 
    Wish you all the best, u totally deserve it.

    Hugs and kisses from Dominican Republic :)

  14. Lauren S.

    April 19, 2012 at 5:20 pm

    I’m sure that if all of us could, we would give you a giant group hug (which would probably terrify you because there would be so many of us.) I know how hard it is to get out of a relationship rut that you’d been in for a long time and even though its for the best, it still sucks majorly. We love you and we miss you, and we’re always going to be here to catch you when you stumble and when you’re sad we’ll let you get drunk and tell us about how much you hate him and we’ll nod in agreement and vehemently say how much better off you are now. We love you Leesha!

    • Feathercroft

      April 20, 2012 at 2:58 am

       This post is amazing and echos my sentiments exactly. :)

  15. Sara

    April 19, 2012 at 5:23 pm

    I’m really sorry to hear about your break up I hope your Okay!
    I really like your new hair it looks great on you,
    I miss you on twitter and youtube though!xxxxxx

  16. Deandrajean

    April 19, 2012 at 5:23 pm

    So sorry to hear about your breakup, but really glad you are doing ok. You are absolutely gorgeous and talented! Things will work out girl

  17. Lesley

    April 19, 2012 at 5:26 pm

    Thank you for keeping your followers updated even as you are going through these changes. I feel connected to your situation in some way because I’ve hard a hard time recently myself for different reasons (I was very sick for nearly a month and just lost my beloved dog suddenly last week). I wish you strength and comfort throughout it all and admire that you’re moving forward and making changes. I feel like you’re going to come out way on top and hope the same happens for me, haha. All the best…

  18. OutInAPout

    April 19, 2012 at 5:26 pm


  19. Derick

    April 19, 2012 at 5:30 pm

    Thinking positive and happy thoughts for you Leesha, looking forward to future videos but more importantly for you to get settled in again!

  20. Mary N

    April 19, 2012 at 5:32 pm

    I’m glad to hear you are doing well after that stressful time. Glad you’re back to interact! You’re such an inspiration to all of us here and you’re so strong :) Thanks for being awesome all of these years. I’ve missed you and “the girls” :P

  21. Phyrra

    April 19, 2012 at 5:33 pm

    I’m sending positive thoughts and love your way. I am sure good things are in store for you :)

  22. Haleyh

    April 19, 2012 at 5:50 pm

    I noticed your twitter absence and was wondering if you were ok. Know these things are no picnic to go through, but glad you are ok. Driving in the car with one cat is a nightmare…two, I coulnd’t imagine! Love the short do!

  23. Sierra

    April 19, 2012 at 5:52 pm

    love your hair leesha! and the pictures of the kitties of course :) you’re a strong and beautiful guru with lots of supporters. no matter what you do, we’ll always love you leesha. as long as you’re happy, and healthy, nothing will change the love you have from us. major love from indiana!

  24. guest

    April 19, 2012 at 6:01 pm

    Leesha, I’m so sorry about everything that happened and I hope you’re adjusting well. I wish you all the best. You’re a beautiful young girl with so much potential and spunk, you can do anything that you set your mind to. You’re a LEO- hold your head up high! <3hugs

  25. Nora, The Potato

    April 19, 2012 at 7:02 pm

    Hi, as the awkward person I am, I’m just gonna say how much I admire your strength and how you deal with things. And this is you.. kbye :)

    • xsparkage

      April 19, 2012 at 7:46 pm

      bahahhahha that cracked me up! :)

  26. Lulieann

    April 19, 2012 at 7:05 pm

    Babe, I believe that all this shit that had to happend is already in the past and now its gonna be all better. New, fresh start is always good thing, right? :)) And I looove how you look in short hair!:) Hot as hell!:))
    Sending you tones of love and positive thinking :)

  27. Cathy Harris

    April 19, 2012 at 7:43 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about what’s happened, and I hope everything will work out for the best.  You’re such an inspiration to us all! Your hair looks AMAZING! Love Ginnifer Goodwin’s hair and Once Upon a Time.   I wish you the very best in this new stage! Sending virtual hugs your way and all the best to you and looking forward to seeing more of you soon!!

  28. Ylime429

    April 19, 2012 at 7:57 pm

    LOVE the hair! I’m in a growing out phrase right now as I want to know what it’s like to have long hair, but your hair looks so awesome it makes me want to cut mine. Also, sorry about what you’re going through. While I enjoy watching your videos, make sure you take enough time for yourself and don’t feel pressured to start making videos until you’re ready. 

  29. Lina K

    April 19, 2012 at 8:11 pm

    Love your hair, and I really hope you’re doing well. Love!

  30. Dudancer42

    April 19, 2012 at 8:17 pm

    I am so sorry you’ve been put under all of this stress lately. Like you said, if it was for the best, then everything will work out for such a wonderful person like yourself. Besides the sadness of that, I absolutely adore your hair! You look so cute and youthful with short hair. (: And @twitter-31392388:disqus , you’re 100 percent right. That photo gave me the case of the giggles too. Haha. xD

  31. Amandafrnr2585

    April 19, 2012 at 8:29 pm

    I wasn’t expecting that at all! I’m sorry to hear about everything that’s been going on. Take all the time you need and everybody will be here when you start making videos and blog posts again. You have no need to apologize.

  32. Kayla

    April 19, 2012 at 8:58 pm

    Oh leesha I’m so sorry to hear about you and Tyler. I hope it ended in a good note. Just remember you are a great person and we all love u. Take all the time you need. You come first.

    Love always

  33. Amby

    April 19, 2012 at 9:01 pm

    wow all of that really sux. I’m sorry your having to go through a hard time. Just remember the hard times makes u stronger. :) 

  34. Clara

    April 20, 2012 at 1:22 am

    Keep you head high and your heart strong:) love you leesha

  35. Goldbecky

    April 20, 2012 at 2:12 am

    I just want you to know that so many people love and support you. I have been reading your blog and watching videos for quite a while now. I even own some discodollies hair bows. I think this is probably the first time I have commented on any of your post but this one just called to my heart.
    At least you got the kitties!
    Luv ya

  36. Elizabeth

    April 20, 2012 at 3:04 am

    You take as much time as you need Leesha We love you and we will defiantly wait for your videos whenever you are ready! I hope everything works out for you! And May the odds forever be in your favor ;) Love you! 

  37. Kacee

    April 20, 2012 at 3:05 am

    I love Once Upon. A Time. <3

  38. Girlcanpaint

    April 20, 2012 at 3:25 am

    Sorry things have been stressful for you, and I hope all gets better for you soon. I love the haircut :)

  39. Brittany

    April 20, 2012 at 3:29 am

    Glad you are okay! I hope everything works out soon!

    I love Once Upon a Time! I can’t wait for this Sunday’s episode! I want to know who August is!

  40. Karina

    April 20, 2012 at 3:34 am

    I hope you’re okay : (
    This made me so so sad
    But i’m so happy that through all of this you still thought about all of us! That’s so admirable!
    I’ve been watching your videos for quite a while now and you really did change my makeup life haha so i’m glad I will get to see more videos!

    So sorry again but glad you’re doing better!

  41. Allisee

    April 20, 2012 at 3:42 am

    This made me want to cry :( I love you Leesha and i’m glad you’re well!

  42. Genevieve

    April 20, 2012 at 3:42 am

    Leesha I am so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything works out for you! Lov the hair!

  43. Safyre

    April 20, 2012 at 3:54 am

    I’m sorry hear that Leesha :( but I’m glad to see you back. You were very missed. Now I don’t mean to say that I think you owe us an explanation, or videos, or blogs, because you don’t and I am grateful for all that you do. It’s just that, in the 3 years that I’ve been watching your vids and being a blog/twitter follower, I almost feel that you’re a friend that I haven’t met yet (I hope that doesn’t sound creepy :/) and was worried when you disappeared. I hope everything works out for you, you deserve it! Best wishes for the future. :)

    • Simone

      April 20, 2012 at 7:30 pm

      I completely agree with Safyre. Leesha has sort of become a friend I’ve never ever met either. :3
      Leesha- I’m glad you’re okay and that you felt like it was time to end your relationship. Seven years is a loooooong time, so if you need to take another break, I’ll understand. You were worrying me for a bit, I was checking back every day to see if you’d posted. Wow, that sounds super creepy, but it’s the truth. By the way, the new hair is fab! You look amazing with any hairstyle, I swear!

  44. EmmyJean

    April 20, 2012 at 4:20 am

    It’s never easy to end something after so many years, even if it is for the best.  It really shows how strong you are.  You’ll be so much happier in the long run though it may suck as first.  Good luck!

  45. Chiara_emme

    April 20, 2012 at 9:06 am

    Cutting hair short is an obligatory step after ending a relationship ;) I love this posts because it shows how strong you are. It really seems like an “on the road” diary and I really love to read about your “adventures”. Wish you’re really ok and that everything will end up for the best for you! 

  46. Aandemaan

    April 20, 2012 at 10:02 am

    Hang in there. You can do this!

  47. Mari Helén Teighagen

    April 20, 2012 at 10:19 am

    I’m sorry for all you have been trough the last weeks. Hopefully the break-up was for the best for both of you.


  48. Laura Rizzo

    April 20, 2012 at 11:44 am

    the hair is faboosh, best wishes on settling into a new place, and hope you have a good summer as you move past the relationship. give yourself the time you need- i know you said you’re fine, but a 7-year relationship is a long time and probably needs a good burial!

  49. Sarah S.

    April 20, 2012 at 12:51 pm

    Glad you are holding up okay! You look so cute with your new haircut :) Welcome to the Pixie life!

  50. AthensLove86

    April 20, 2012 at 2:04 pm

    that picture is gorgeous!

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