Hi! I'm Alive! Little update on life for you :) - xSparkage

Hi! I’m Alive! Little update on life for you :)

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Hi!

Long time no talk, I know. I hate going on MIA spells from YouTube and Blogging, and I know doing that without any warning is really lame of me, so I apologize.

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Long story short, These past 2 weeks have been very long and very, very stressful. I don’t mean to bore anyone with details, but I basically ended a 7 year relationship (for the best and I am fine), had to pack up and move all of my belongings out of my apartment within a week, find a company that can move and store 95% of my belongings until I find a new place (and was incredibly overcharged for it), drive a 16 hour trip back to Arizona with two cats (one of which got carsick twice, so that was fun), blah blah blah.

I am just now getting settled in enough to focus back on youtube and blogging. I’m staying at a friends condo that isn’t used 80% of the year, and still have to figure out where a good place to film is, along with finding some equipment to use to film (lights and such.. everything is packed with the movers because I couldn’t fit much in my car for the drive). Fingers crossed that by next week I will be ready to go and be able to post videos and blogs back on a regular schedule.

I’ve been pretty quiet on Facebook and verrry quiet on Twitter (I was a twitter maniac!) but I’ve been trying to be more active on Instagram. My username is xSparkage if you wanna keep up with me :)

Anyways, so this post isn’t entirely text, here are a few pictures from my trip home :)

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Can you guess which one vommed twice? (Hint- its not the one that LOOKS sick, lol. thats her bored face!)

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They ended up climbing in the bigger carrier together. My cats are so photogenic.

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The hotel we stopped at had a very strange waffle Iron.. I couldn’t tell what it is until the waffle was made. Good ol’ Texas!

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This was a weird gas station/touristy store in the middle of nowhere that was made to look like it was fake.. but it really was that big inside! So goofy haha

 

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Also, I thought I’d update you with a (really terrible) picture showing my new hair! I got it cut SUPER short a few weeks ago, a la Emma Watson. When I dyed my hair brown back in February, I reaaallly screwed it up (thanks to being impulsive and stupid, not getting it done professionally and not using any fillers, etc) and decided that I’d rather have short, healthy hair than longer hair that feels and looks terrible. It’s quite a change for me (never had hair this short!) but I am really loving it. It is so so so easy to style and maintain, it feels and looks healthy and shiny, and it’ll be great with the AZ summer heat :) Ideally I’d love for it to grow out more in the front and be like Gennifer Goodwin’s hair (I’ve been watching Once Upon A Time, kinda obsessed with the show and in LOVE with her pixie!) but like I said before, because of how damaged my hair was it was easier to just get a fresh start.

 

Okay, now that you are up to speed I hope you understand my absence the past few weeks!

See you soon :)

 

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147 Comments

  1. Kristina

    April 19, 2012 at 6:43 am

    Yay! So good to hear what you’ve been up to. Lots of changes, but it sounds like it’s all for the best. Your hair looks fabulous and I can’t wait to see what you do next. :)

  2. Autumn Angel

    April 19, 2012 at 6:45 am

    This may sound a little more creepy-stalkerish than intended, but it’s so good to hear from you! My Twitter feed has gone strangely silent in the last couple of weeks :P Anyway, despite the complications, I’m glad you seem to be well overall <3 I hope things look up and that you can get back into your usual swing of things! :)

  3. Soo

    April 19, 2012 at 6:47 am

    stay strong, Leesha! we’re all rooting for you :)

  4. camelicious_

    April 19, 2012 at 6:47 am

    aww i’m so sorry to hear about you and tyler! take as much time as you need to get your stuff together, we all love you! :)

  5. Sarah

    April 19, 2012 at 6:51 am

    Your hair looks amazing! So glad you’re well! We miss you! :)

  6. Danielle Hon

    April 19, 2012 at 6:53 am

    all that matters is that you are happy and healthy and where you need to be… we’ll be here waiting :) 

  7. LucyTyson

    April 19, 2012 at 6:53 am

    it just seems like a bug. Was with my BF for 6 years and in Feb he told me he just “wasnt in to ‘it’ anymore”  same with a few gfs, just random break ups. I think all the men are having issues lately.

  8. Lisa

    April 19, 2012 at 6:56 am

    Snow’s hair will look great on you! Go for it. I LOVE Once Upon A Time too! Sorry to hear all the hard times you’ve been through but glad to hear that your doing good and moving forward. Your a strong lil lady! Keep it up! :)

  9. Daysiramirez_21

    April 19, 2012 at 6:56 am

    hope your feeling better and take all the time you need to heel!!! <3

  10. victoria

    April 19, 2012 at 6:56 am

    Welcome back to Arizona leesha!! So happy to see you….may sound stalkerish but I was just wondering where you were lol but glad that your okay! :D best of luck to you and just thought id add I’m in az too! Lol hope to see some videos soon :D

  11. Starling Bright

    April 19, 2012 at 6:57 am

    Glad to hear that you are ok even though it has been a tough time for you. 

  12. Dezi

    April 19, 2012 at 6:59 am

    Yeah I’m going through a breakup as well we’ve had problems but I didn’t think it was over I thought we were working on things.. Something about April smh but glad to hear your doing okay hunn!! That’s great and no rush to come back to us we all understand that you have a life (well I hope all of us understand that lol) but we’ll be waiting when you get yourself situated!! Stay happy and keep doing you leesha :)

  13. Theresa M.

    April 19, 2012 at 7:05 am

    Aw I’m so sorry that you & Tyler have broken up. I’m glad you’re doing well :) You’re definitely taking it better than I did with my last relationship!

  14. Breerocks1983

    April 19, 2012 at 7:14 am

    Welcome back to AZ!  (Maybe you can do a Meet and Greet now up in Phx)  I’m sorry to hear about your relationship ending, but glad you are ok with it!  I think we stopped at that exact same gas station place on our way out here to Tucson.

  15. Dani

    April 19, 2012 at 7:42 am

    You and my sister must be cosmically aligned somehow.  About a month ago now she drove here (Oregon) from Arizona to visit.  I drove back with her for company and because her dog gets really carsick and pukes like your kitties (and lucky me she pooped on me, and she’s not a small dog).  We got to Arizona and 2 days in to being back she decided to leave her husband.  So we packed her house in the course of 10 hours, shoved as much as we could in her little car and drove back to Oregon which is about a 25 hour drive.  Her moving company also over charged her, and her stuff just showed up yesterday.  

    In the end though it was the right choice.  I’m sure it was the right choice for you as well.  It’s just funny how similar the experiences are.  If you tell me you’re going to buy acreage and start homesteading now, it’s going to get really weird,

    I hope all the best for you with your new life, and look forward to you getting settled and doing videos again.

  16. Mjclev

    April 19, 2012 at 7:55 am

    Welcome back to AZ! Im sorry to hear about your situation but good puck and Congrats on starting a new chapter, doing what’s best for you! Sending lots of strength and happiness your way!!

  17. Jessi M

    April 19, 2012 at 7:57 am

    This is funny (not funny-funny, but funny-ironic), but I just moved BACK to Austin due to the end of a 9 year relationship and you’re LEAVING Austin due to the end of a relationship. I know what you’re feeling, even though you’re putting on a brave face, and I’ll be thinking about you.

  18. Nymph1816

    April 19, 2012 at 8:00 am

    Aww. You’re a really awesome lady. Like, obviously I just anonymous watch you from the internet (sounds creepier than it is…) but your amazing spirit shows through in all of your videos and posts. And now you have THE CUTEST HAIR. I buzzed my hair last fall, and now it’s about 3 inches. I’m also looking forward to someday having a ginnerfer goodwyn cut. 

    I’m sure you’ve already gotten this… but with super short hair people will be like, “OMG, it looks great on you… but that would NEVER work on me…” It’s so weird!

    Sending positive vibes.

  19. Pretty Gossip

    April 19, 2012 at 8:03 am

    We love you and want you to be happy. Big changes take a lot of courage, and seems like you’re making it through. :) I’ll be sure to follow you on instagram and here’s to a great summer! Welcome back, hope you get settled in quickly, and we’ve missed you!!! xoxo. PrettyGossip

  20. Pretty Gossip

    April 19, 2012 at 8:03 am

    ps… I think the guilty looking kitty on the left got sick. poor thing. :( 

  21. Amanda

    April 19, 2012 at 8:07 am

    I was wondering about you, Leesha. I’m glad that you’re ok. I hope everything gets better for you. Your two cats are so adorable :)

  22. Sanna Kaldma

    April 19, 2012 at 8:21 am

    I’m glad you’re ok:) I wish you all the best! You’re awesome!
    <3

  23. Sandy_j15

    April 19, 2012 at 8:27 am

    Hi leesha, I just got out of a 5 year relationship as well. Just know we r here as support. I am happy u r doing well. Take ur time as we can wait. We understand. Thank u for sharing with us. We love u :)

  24. Jenn

    April 19, 2012 at 8:57 am

    Glad to hear you’re OK. I know how hard it is when such a long relationship ends. I love your hair! I also cut mine into a similar pixie cut about 2 months ago because I wanted to start over fresh, my hair was so damaged! (I also adore Ginnifer Goodwin’s cut!) Wigs are awesome too. haha. Much luck and restoration  to you. :-)

  25. CherVue

    April 19, 2012 at 9:29 am

    I hope all is well and thanks for acknowledging your fans! We will always be here to empathize and be here for you! <3

  26. Ere Kanezawa

    April 19, 2012 at 9:31 am

    Finger crossed for you! Good luck! We’re happy you’re OK :)

  27. Tasha

    April 19, 2012 at 10:16 am

    Sorry to hear that you had to end the relationship! Good luck with everything I hope for the best for you :) 

  28. Amber

    April 19, 2012 at 11:00 am

    Sorry to hear of the break up but at least you are in good spirits! THanks for the update I have been wondering where you have been, cant wait till you are back! 

  29. Nancey

    April 19, 2012 at 11:04 am

    Keep up that attitude, you’re a strong person!

  30. Krystal Best-Pickup

    April 19, 2012 at 11:22 am

    wow that had to be tough. Suddenly splitting up with someone you have shared a long part of your life with is always hard and difficult. I hope everything goes well for you and your kitties. Your strong and will get through this tough time.
    Oh I love your haircut. It looks good on you.

  31. vero

    April 19, 2012 at 11:51 am

    I wish you the best :)

  32. Faith

    April 19, 2012 at 12:04 pm

    I’m so sorry you had to leave Austin! I’m glad y are doing ok, and that your kitties survived the trip. You’re missed on the Internet, but don’t worry about taking time to take care of you!

  33. Beth M

    April 19, 2012 at 12:17 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about what’s happened, and I hope everything will work out for the best. You should take off as much time as you need! Your life, your family, and being happy is more important than anything else going on (especially work).
    If nothing else, your hair looks fantastic. Love you, Leesha! <3 Good vibes coming your way from Louisville, KY!

  34. Jennifer Smith

    April 19, 2012 at 12:28 pm

    I’m so sorry you’ve had a stressful time.  Thank you for sharing an update with us, please keep looking after yourself for as long as it takes before you get involved with YouTube/blogging etc again – and your gorgeous kittehs of course ;)

    I love your hair!  I had mine cut that short six weeks ago then had it cut even shorter again yesterday – I took a photo of Emma Watson with me to show the stylist :P

    Sending you lots of support and best wishes,
    Jenny

  35. Maggie Murphy

    April 19, 2012 at 12:31 pm

    I’m so sorry! I just ended a 9 year relationship with my girls father so I know it’s rough. And little by little you start to get over it everyday! I’m dealing with something similar, and the fact that I don’t really have anyone to helpout or pay for anything hasn’t changed I’ve never had any help from him. But it’s all for the best. I was really unhappy, and never could do anything that I wanted to do. So happiness doesn’t really help me grow I’ve learned only unhappiness does that which sounds weird but in my case totally makes sense lol. Keep ur head up girl like me and I guaranty it’ll get better :)

  36. Dagmar

    April 19, 2012 at 12:32 pm

    I wish you all the best for this time and I keep my fingers crossed for you! big hugs! you are a very beautiful woman and I like you very much!

  37. Emmely

    April 19, 2012 at 12:50 pm

    I wish you all the best and luck in the world. You should know that all of your subscribers and followers love you no matter what! hugs and kisses from Holland

  38. Rlealgraphics

    April 19, 2012 at 12:51 pm

    I too wish you the best. I love your videos and your new hair! Jennifer Goodwin’s pixie is my fav!

  39. Sam

    April 19, 2012 at 1:02 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about you and Tyler, and even though you say you’re fine, I’m keeping you in my positive thoughts <3 you're a strong woman and you can get through anything! Love you Leesha!

  40. Spectrum Personae

    April 19, 2012 at 1:06 pm

    wish you the very best, leesha. i (well, he) ended a 8 year relationship a year ago, so yeah…i’m one of the girls that *know* what it’s like :) hope you’re gonna do just fine *hugs* 
    also, i noticed today that my cat (looks like one of yours but way bigger) lost a tooth XD

  41. Frickster32

    April 19, 2012 at 1:27 pm

    Thinking of you and wishing you the very best.  I miss your posts, but I really want you to take care of yourself!  That is much more important!  You are strong and sassy – I know you will rise above this and be even better.  God bless!

  42. Kimberly

    April 19, 2012 at 1:44 pm

    Aw. To repeat what everyone else has already said, I’m sorry you’ve been dealing with so much stress. I hope it makes you feel a little bit better to know that you have many people on here that care about you, and want the best for you. Stay strong girl! Noone should be mad that you haven’t been making videos, we understand your struggle.

    On a light note, your hair looks gorgeous on you! And I can’t wait to start hearing more from you as you get to feeling better.

  43. indie

    April 19, 2012 at 1:56 pm

    LOVE your hair.  Sorry about everything else.  Stress is no good and it sounds like you’ve had tons.  Hang in there.  We’ll be here when you get back.

  44. Guest

    April 19, 2012 at 1:57 pm

    My husband and I separated at the end of February… I to am fine, but it is a rough go no matter what the situation;) All the best to you and looking forward to seeing more of you soon!!

  45. Valerie Shore

    April 19, 2012 at 1:58 pm

    I really hope everything turns out okay for you.. It seems weird to say things like you’re a strong person! and you can get through this, since I’m basically a stranger to you, but I really feel as though you can. Sometimes these big life changes are gateways into greater & better things. :) 

  46. Suji

    April 19, 2012 at 2:05 pm

    Hang in there, Leesha.  Thanks for the update!  Hoping everything gets better for you :)

  47. Crystal

    April 19, 2012 at 2:17 pm

    I know you’ll be fine. You have such a beautiful heart and when your ready you’ll share that with someone and they will be so deserving of it. I ended a long relationship almost five years ago today and it was horrible. But I’m writing to you from my new home with my husband of almost two years who treats me WAY better and is the love of my life. Sometimes life has something amazing in store for you and you just have to end something that isn’t right to be ready for what is.

  48. Mar

    April 19, 2012 at 2:20 pm

    I’m not good at this thing so I’m just gonna say that I wish you the best and hope that you can get pass this situation and see what an awesome life you have ahead of you. Love be =)

  49. Taime

    April 19, 2012 at 2:27 pm

    I’m sorry to hear that you were under so much stress!!  It was nice to hear from you and that you are doing well!  I wish you the best with everything Leesha and look forward to whatever you do next.  

  50. Cindy R

    April 19, 2012 at 2:46 pm

    I am extremely happy and proud you took that big step. Leaving a relationship if that long is the hardest thing to do, and the fact you did it with two cats and by yourself is admirable. You seem like such a genuinely sweet and caring person through out your videos and blog posts, reading this honestly upset me! I know you’ll be fine. I’m rooting for you! Also, your new hair looks amazing! Beatutiful as always Leesha!

  51. Caitlin

    April 19, 2012 at 2:48 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear that! You look awesome, and I know you are strong and brave enough to get through this. I’m sure the shorter hair will feel so much better in the oven-like heat of Arizona, and it shows off your piercings more. :) I wish you the best with this huge change, and you certainly deserve a youtube/blogging break so you can adjust to everything. 

  52. K8theCurst

    April 19, 2012 at 2:50 pm

    Thanks for the update Leesha! It’s good to read that you’re doing well. Good luck with the life changes – you know you have your readers for support. :)

  53. Hautebeautygirl

    April 19, 2012 at 3:13 pm

    My stomach just fell out of my butt!! I was not expecting that news at all. If I’ve learned anything about you is that you are a strong and confident woman and I know you will be just fine. I just hope you aren’t put off on Texas and come to visit every now and then. Love you Leesha!

  54. Nena E.

    April 19, 2012 at 3:33 pm

    Aww Leesha! It sucks that you’re going through all that mess and stress but if it’s for the best then I guess it’s just fine. That’s how you handle a break up, sucking it up and moving on (and out lol) and especially, being quiet about it, no need for drama, it’s your life and I think it’s easier to handle this type of situations when you keep it to yourself. I wish you the very best in this new stage ! Much lovesies <3.

  55. Talia

    April 19, 2012 at 4:10 pm

    Glad your still alive girl! You’re a strong girl! Long relationships are the hardest to end and it def takes a confident and strong little lady to go thro them! I’m here for you!
    xoxo
    Talia

  56. Janine Learner

    April 19, 2012 at 4:25 pm

    Sorry to hear you’ve been going through such an upheavel (that doesnt look like it’s spelled right but I can’t be bothered to check). You’re completely awesome and I’m sure where-ever life takes you next, you’ll make the most of it. Good luck with everything.

    And oooh I’m completely obsessed with Once Upon a Time too. I think Ginnifer Goodwin’s hair is gorgeous and I had my daughter’s hair cut pixie-ish like that too, she’s a tomboy and hated it long so off it all came. Everyone said how “brave” I was to do that and I kept thinking “it’s just hair, it grows back”. She looks so cute and it’s so easy to take care of.

  57. Mimi Gay

    April 19, 2012 at 4:26 pm

    Leesha! I hope you are ok. I understand, I had to end a 5 year one and move out. It was the hardest thing I ever did. Glad you are back, you rock! And glad you got to keep the kitties:)

  58. lexiwho

    April 19, 2012 at 4:44 pm

    So sorry to hear you’ve been going through so much. Glad to hear you’re getting through it okay and moving forward. Stay strong and I’ll be here when you’re able to get back to it. Focus on yourself right now, people with a heart will understand what you’re going through. 

  59. Chelsea Deem

    April 19, 2012 at 4:45 pm

    Sorry to hear about the breakup, I hope you’re doing well.

    On another note, your cats are GORGEOUS! What a perfectly snubbed nose! Haha. Welcome back to AZ, by the way. I think the news said 100+ F today. Yikes! I plan on staying inside.

  60. Sophiehemmings

    April 19, 2012 at 5:01 pm

    oh so sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough time, but glad you’re alright :) your hair looks stunning too :) we’ve missed you! xxxxx

  61. Daintynymph

    April 19, 2012 at 5:11 pm

    I think my cat is your cats’ sister. She’s the same black fur, face shape, amber eyes, and white splotch on the chest! I love it.

  62. Salem101

    April 19, 2012 at 5:19 pm

    So sorry to hear about your breakup. ): But you seem like a strong person, and we know you can get through it. By the way, your cats are gorgeous (I have a cat that looks just like them) and so does your hair! Hope you’re feeling better.

  63. Erikasvanity

    April 19, 2012 at 5:20 pm

    I love you so much Leesha. U’re such an inspiration to me. You’re so strong, intelligent, beautiful, funny girl. I’ve missed your lil icon on my Twitter and u’re face on my YouTube but I know everyone needs time with this kind of stuff. 
    Let me just say ur hair looks AMAZING! I love it! 
    Wish you all the best, u totally deserve it.

    Hugs and kisses from Dominican Republic :)

  64. Lauren S.

    April 19, 2012 at 5:20 pm

    I’m sure that if all of us could, we would give you a giant group hug (which would probably terrify you because there would be so many of us.) I know how hard it is to get out of a relationship rut that you’d been in for a long time and even though its for the best, it still sucks majorly. We love you and we miss you, and we’re always going to be here to catch you when you stumble and when you’re sad we’ll let you get drunk and tell us about how much you hate him and we’ll nod in agreement and vehemently say how much better off you are now. We love you Leesha!

    • Feathercroft

      April 20, 2012 at 2:58 am

       This post is amazing and echos my sentiments exactly. :)

  65. Sara

    April 19, 2012 at 5:23 pm

    I’m really sorry to hear about your break up I hope your Okay!
    I really like your new hair it looks great on you,
    I miss you on twitter and youtube though!xxxxxx

  66. Deandrajean

    April 19, 2012 at 5:23 pm

    So sorry to hear about your breakup, but really glad you are doing ok. You are absolutely gorgeous and talented! Things will work out girl

  67. Lesley

    April 19, 2012 at 5:26 pm

    Thank you for keeping your followers updated even as you are going through these changes. I feel connected to your situation in some way because I’ve hard a hard time recently myself for different reasons (I was very sick for nearly a month and just lost my beloved dog suddenly last week). I wish you strength and comfort throughout it all and admire that you’re moving forward and making changes. I feel like you’re going to come out way on top and hope the same happens for me, haha. All the best…

  68. OutInAPout

    April 19, 2012 at 5:26 pm

    <3

  69. Derick

    April 19, 2012 at 5:30 pm

    Thinking positive and happy thoughts for you Leesha, looking forward to future videos but more importantly for you to get settled in again!

  70. Mary N

    April 19, 2012 at 5:32 pm

    I’m glad to hear you are doing well after that stressful time. Glad you’re back to interact! You’re such an inspiration to all of us here and you’re so strong :) Thanks for being awesome all of these years. I’ve missed you and “the girls” :P

  71. Phyrra

    April 19, 2012 at 5:33 pm

    I’m sending positive thoughts and love your way. I am sure good things are in store for you :)

  72. Haleyh

    April 19, 2012 at 5:50 pm

    I noticed your twitter absence and was wondering if you were ok. Know these things are no picnic to go through, but glad you are ok. Driving in the car with one cat is a nightmare…two, I coulnd’t imagine! Love the short do!

  73. Sierra

    April 19, 2012 at 5:52 pm

    love your hair leesha! and the pictures of the kitties of course :) you’re a strong and beautiful guru with lots of supporters. no matter what you do, we’ll always love you leesha. as long as you’re happy, and healthy, nothing will change the love you have from us. major love from indiana!

  74. guest

    April 19, 2012 at 6:01 pm

    Leesha, I’m so sorry about everything that happened and I hope you’re adjusting well. I wish you all the best. You’re a beautiful young girl with so much potential and spunk, you can do anything that you set your mind to. You’re a LEO- hold your head up high! <3hugs

  75. Nora, The Potato

    April 19, 2012 at 7:02 pm

    Hi, as the awkward person I am, I’m just gonna say how much I admire your strength and how you deal with things. And this is you.. kbye :)

    • xsparkage

      April 19, 2012 at 7:46 pm

      bahahhahha that cracked me up! :)

  76. Lulieann

    April 19, 2012 at 7:05 pm

    Babe, I believe that all this shit that had to happend is already in the past and now its gonna be all better. New, fresh start is always good thing, right? :)) And I looove how you look in short hair!:) Hot as hell!:))
     
    Sending you tones of love and positive thinking :)
    xoxo
    eslucia

  77. Cathy Harris

    April 19, 2012 at 7:43 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about what’s happened, and I hope everything will work out for the best.  You’re such an inspiration to us all! Your hair looks AMAZING! Love Ginnifer Goodwin’s hair and Once Upon a Time.   I wish you the very best in this new stage! Sending virtual hugs your way and all the best to you and looking forward to seeing more of you soon!!

  78. Ylime429

    April 19, 2012 at 7:57 pm

    LOVE the hair! I’m in a growing out phrase right now as I want to know what it’s like to have long hair, but your hair looks so awesome it makes me want to cut mine. Also, sorry about what you’re going through. While I enjoy watching your videos, make sure you take enough time for yourself and don’t feel pressured to start making videos until you’re ready. 

  79. Lina K

    April 19, 2012 at 8:11 pm

    Love your hair, and I really hope you’re doing well. Love!

  80. Dudancer42

    April 19, 2012 at 8:17 pm

    I am so sorry you’ve been put under all of this stress lately. Like you said, if it was for the best, then everything will work out for such a wonderful person like yourself. Besides the sadness of that, I absolutely adore your hair! You look so cute and youthful with short hair. (: And @twitter-31392388:disqus , you’re 100 percent right. That photo gave me the case of the giggles too. Haha. xD

  81. Amandafrnr2585

    April 19, 2012 at 8:29 pm

    I wasn’t expecting that at all! I’m sorry to hear about everything that’s been going on. Take all the time you need and everybody will be here when you start making videos and blog posts again. You have no need to apologize.

  82. Kayla

    April 19, 2012 at 8:58 pm

    Oh leesha I’m so sorry to hear about you and Tyler. I hope it ended in a good note. Just remember you are a great person and we all love u. Take all the time you need. You come first.

    Love always
    Kayla

  83. Amby

    April 19, 2012 at 9:01 pm

    wow all of that really sux. I’m sorry your having to go through a hard time. Just remember the hard times makes u stronger. :) 

  84. Clara

    April 20, 2012 at 1:22 am

    Keep you head high and your heart strong:) love you leesha

  85. Goldbecky

    April 20, 2012 at 2:12 am

    I just want you to know that so many people love and support you. I have been reading your blog and watching videos for quite a while now. I even own some discodollies hair bows. I think this is probably the first time I have commented on any of your post but this one just called to my heart.
    At least you got the kitties!
    Luv ya
    Becky

  86. Elizabeth

    April 20, 2012 at 3:04 am

    You take as much time as you need Leesha We love you and we will defiantly wait for your videos whenever you are ready! I hope everything works out for you! And May the odds forever be in your favor ;) Love you! 

  87. Kacee

    April 20, 2012 at 3:05 am

    I love Once Upon. A Time. <3

  88. Girlcanpaint

    April 20, 2012 at 3:25 am

    Sorry things have been stressful for you, and I hope all gets better for you soon. I love the haircut :)

  89. Brittany

    April 20, 2012 at 3:29 am

    Glad you are okay! I hope everything works out soon!

    I love Once Upon a Time! I can’t wait for this Sunday’s episode! I want to know who August is!

  90. Karina

    April 20, 2012 at 3:34 am

    I hope you’re okay : (
    This made me so so sad
    But i’m so happy that through all of this you still thought about all of us! That’s so admirable!
    I’ve been watching your videos for quite a while now and you really did change my makeup life haha so i’m glad I will get to see more videos!

    So sorry again but glad you’re doing better!

  91. Allisee

    April 20, 2012 at 3:42 am

    This made me want to cry :( I love you Leesha and i’m glad you’re well!

  92. Genevieve

    April 20, 2012 at 3:42 am

    Leesha I am so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope everything works out for you! Lov the hair!

  93. Safyre

    April 20, 2012 at 3:54 am

    I’m sorry hear that Leesha :( but I’m glad to see you back. You were very missed. Now I don’t mean to say that I think you owe us an explanation, or videos, or blogs, because you don’t and I am grateful for all that you do. It’s just that, in the 3 years that I’ve been watching your vids and being a blog/twitter follower, I almost feel that you’re a friend that I haven’t met yet (I hope that doesn’t sound creepy :/) and was worried when you disappeared. I hope everything works out for you, you deserve it! Best wishes for the future. :)

    • Simone

      April 20, 2012 at 7:30 pm

      I completely agree with Safyre. Leesha has sort of become a friend I’ve never ever met either. :3
      Leesha- I’m glad you’re okay and that you felt like it was time to end your relationship. Seven years is a loooooong time, so if you need to take another break, I’ll understand. You were worrying me for a bit, I was checking back every day to see if you’d posted. Wow, that sounds super creepy, but it’s the truth. By the way, the new hair is fab! You look amazing with any hairstyle, I swear!

  94. EmmyJean

    April 20, 2012 at 4:20 am

    It’s never easy to end something after so many years, even if it is for the best.  It really shows how strong you are.  You’ll be so much happier in the long run though it may suck as first.  Good luck!

  95. Chiara_emme

    April 20, 2012 at 9:06 am

    Cutting hair short is an obligatory step after ending a relationship ;) I love this posts because it shows how strong you are. It really seems like an “on the road” diary and I really love to read about your “adventures”. Wish you’re really ok and that everything will end up for the best for you! 

  96. Aandemaan

    April 20, 2012 at 10:02 am

    Hang in there. You can do this!

  97. Mari Helén Teighagen

    April 20, 2012 at 10:19 am

    I’m sorry for all you have been trough the last weeks. Hopefully the break-up was for the best for both of you.

    http://apeekofmarislife.blogspot.com/ 

  98. Laura Rizzo

    April 20, 2012 at 11:44 am

    the hair is faboosh, best wishes on settling into a new place, and hope you have a good summer as you move past the relationship. give yourself the time you need- i know you said you’re fine, but a 7-year relationship is a long time and probably needs a good burial!

  99. Sarah S.

    April 20, 2012 at 12:51 pm

    Glad you are holding up okay! You look so cute with your new haircut :) Welcome to the Pixie life!

  100. AthensLove86

    April 20, 2012 at 2:04 pm

    that picture is gorgeous!

  101. Nicole Jan

    April 20, 2012 at 3:03 pm

    Glad that you are doing okay now!  Love your new haircut:)  

  102. Angie Liddiard

    April 20, 2012 at 3:52 pm

    Love you! Glad everything is ok and I think you look amazing!

  103. Andieemail308

    April 20, 2012 at 3:56 pm

    *virtual hug* 

  104. Monica Aamodt Almås

    April 20, 2012 at 6:24 pm

    Good to hear from you… and I’m glad to see you feel that ending the relationship was the right thing to do. These things are always tough, but you seem strond, and like you’re positive to the future. :) 

    And.. oh.. I got an idea. As a fellow “Once upun a time”-fan.. why don’t film tutorials from that? Maybe that will give you some inspiration and something nice to think about. :) 

    Hugs from Monica

  105. Jenny

    April 20, 2012 at 6:44 pm

    Leesha!!!! Sending you hugs! I hope that you sort yourself out soon. xxx

  106. Wren-d Richardson

    April 20, 2012 at 6:47 pm

    For the long car trip did you have a travel litterbox or something in your car? I’m never sure what to do for my cat on long trips, I’m not sure she’d even use a box if I put one on the floor of the car.

  107. Joshua Goodstein

    April 20, 2012 at 8:13 pm

    Why did you break up?

    • Amanda

      April 21, 2012 at 4:14 pm

      Do you really think she would answer that? It’s kind of personal.

    • Tifaskyy

      April 27, 2012 at 2:41 pm

      It’s a little too soon. I’m sure she’ll hint at it when shes ready. 

  108. Natsownname

    April 21, 2012 at 12:23 am

    I am glad to see you are back, but sad to hear why you were gone. I just wanted to let you know that you have the cutest kitten children. I love seeing pictures of them getting into all sorts of shenanigans. They have to make you smile. My kittens (pic below) and I are happy to hear you are okay. Take care.

  109. On_a_sunday

    April 21, 2012 at 2:45 am

    your hair looks amazing :)
    sorry to hear about the break up. long relationship breakups are not fun, but if it was for the better i’m glad you’ll be happier :)

  110. Elle

    April 21, 2012 at 7:17 am

    We appreciate the update. Sorry to hear about your break-up. I’m glad to hear you’re doing well and your hair looks super cute. Looking forward to what’s next. :)

  111. Chinadancer1016

    April 21, 2012 at 5:04 pm

    aww Leesha I’m so sorry =/ I’m glad you chose what was best for you even though it wasn’t easy. Things will get better. Take all the time you need, and I can’t wait for your next blog/video! *hugs*

  112. Heather Bee Pink

    April 22, 2012 at 12:25 am

    Keep your head up girl! I think we all understand life happens! Looking great with the short new ‘do too :)

  113. Beautygril007

    April 22, 2012 at 12:56 am

    I wanted to comment on your kitty’s their lovely I love my kitty’s too and so I would love to share this cute photo. It looks awful small I hope you can enlarge it enough to see it.

  114. Lisa

    April 22, 2012 at 1:07 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your break-up and everything else!  I hope things settle for you soon – but take your time!  I love your new hair-do, it really suits you! :)

  115. disco-grrrl

    April 22, 2012 at 3:44 am

    Just like others said: Take your time. And you don’t have to apologize for not writing as often as you can. Break ups happen, it’s better than being in a bad relationship and unhappy like most people nowadays. Relax, rest for a while and when you’re ready, write a post… Hope you’ll settle down soon =)

  116. Tigress

    April 22, 2012 at 7:36 am

    My heart goes out to you, as I was in a similar situation last year around this time. Take all the time you need to get adjusted and keep your chin up. Things are gonna suck for a while, but it will get better. Music and cats help all problems. 

  117. Cynthia

    April 22, 2012 at 8:15 pm

    Hey Leesha, I’ve been following you for a few years now and I love your blog and video’s. I never ever left a comment but now I feel like I have too. What a rought time you are going through right now. I really feel for you and wanna tell you that you are stronger than you think!

    Well I just wanted to say I feel for you and my thoughts will go out to you the next weeks. XXX from Holland

  118. Zarina

    April 22, 2012 at 8:47 pm

    I just want to give you a big hug after reading this. I think you are a great and strong woman. The short hair looks beautiful and I wish you all the best with getting settled. Take your time and don’t worry about your watchers/viewers. We understand where you’re comming from and I, an soooo many other peope, will support you no matter what. Big hug!

  119. Zoe Clark

    April 23, 2012 at 5:35 pm

    I’m glad to hear you’re ok Leesha, it was hard for me to end a 2 year relationship, I can’t imagine ending a 7 year one! The moving must have been so stressful, you are so strong and now I look up to you for so many more reasons, here’s to the future! :)

  120. Marielle

    April 23, 2012 at 10:31 pm

    Your cats are adorable, your hair looks great, and I hope you’re doing okay!

  121. Amaffett

    April 23, 2012 at 11:06 pm

    I don’t normally post comments, but my thoughts are with you, dear! What a traumatic recent few weeks for you..but you are strong and will make it through this time okay. :)

  122. Stacy

    April 24, 2012 at 3:52 am

    i love your kitties by the way, and I thought this pic of one of my kittens would make you smile. he passed away a few weeks ago because of an accident, but he was one of the cutest ones and i still love to show everyone his picture <3

  123. Liz

    April 24, 2012 at 1:21 pm

    Hi Leesha,

    I don’t normally comment, but after reading your post on the 19th I decided to finally go for it and cut off my hair. I love your new haircut and am very glad I went to get mine cut. Even with everything that’s going on you’re still inspiring people! :) 

  124. Grace

    April 24, 2012 at 4:42 pm

    HUGS!!! WE LOVE YOUU!!

  125. Chris

    April 24, 2012 at 5:35 pm

    Best of luck on finding your new place.  I love your hair short – so cute on you! 

  126. rockpaperscissors

    April 24, 2012 at 11:28 pm

    Aw.  Look at you!  Lots of life changes.  I wish you strength and hope you are kind to yourself.

  127. Mightyclassy07

    April 25, 2012 at 4:47 am

    You got me hooked on Once Upon A Time…  I can’t decide to thank or curse you, m’dear!  ;)  Hope all’s well in AZ

  128. Guest

    April 25, 2012 at 9:13 pm

    I hope you feel better and take all the time you need to adjust. I understand that life is hard when transition like this happen so take all the time you need, YouTube and the rest of the world will go on while you have to do what you have to do :)

  129. Ali Culp

    April 26, 2012 at 5:18 am

    Hi Leesha,
    I don’t usually comment, i’m kinda shy and therefore i’m a lurker >.<
    But I felt obliged to comment because I am saddened by this post because you are my favorite beauty blogger. It is so inspiring how strong you are so I wanted to say to keep hanging in there, the youtube videos and blog posts can wait till you get your life back on track. :)
    xoxo 

  130. Védís Eir Snorradóttir

    May 1, 2012 at 6:27 pm

    I never have commented before but now I feel like I should. I really hope you will feel better, we all understand what your going through and difficulty of the situation. We all wish the best for you, so hang in there! Leesha, you are an amazing, inspiring and beautiful woman and don’t you ever forget that! I know you´ll pull through this. Blog posts and videos can wait, take your time. 

    Love, Vedis from Iceland. :)

  131. tasha

    May 3, 2012 at 5:26 pm

    Heya I never usually comment but have been following you since the beginning when you were originally blonde & curly haha! & I just wanted to say I am going through a similar situation, my fiance cheated on me so I have had to totally restart my life aswell and seeing someone like you who had inspired me for years go through the same thing is just such a boost to me stay strong and know that everything happens for a reason , life is not a dress rehersal if your not happy your not living! Wishing you all the best x

  132. Rita Therese Baumann

    May 3, 2012 at 7:37 pm

    I think a lot of us feel the same – that your videos have brought us so much – that we want in some way, through our thoughts and posts, to show our support. Keep Truckin!

  133. lexi

    May 5, 2012 at 1:32 am

    everyone needs a break sometimes. I’m glad you’re sorting things out and will be back more often

  134. Meredith from lushli

    May 5, 2012 at 10:03 pm

    Oh no I’m sorry to hear you’ve been going through a difficult time.  Hopefully everything will get sorted soon.  Your blog posts are dearly missed but you need to take care of yourself first :)

  135. Ally

    May 6, 2012 at 9:25 pm

    I’m glad to your doing okay, Leesha!  We’ve missed you. My thoughts go out to you as you deal with all these crazy changes at once. I love the hair, and I love how daring and bold you are to always change it. I hope everything works out! :)

  136. Kacey

    May 7, 2012 at 7:01 am

    I started to panic when you hadn’t posted in awhile. Thank goodness you’re okay. :)

  137. wendy hood

    May 13, 2012 at 2:52 pm

    I recently ended a 5 year relationship. It was a nightmare, personal threats to my and my familys safety, my property, etc etc. When the bad starts to outweigh the good, it hurts sooooooooo badly to leave but you dont have a choice.

  138. fiorela

    May 14, 2012 at 1:03 am

    im glad your fine thanx for the update.. keep you head up things hope things work out for the best.

  139. katt

    May 14, 2012 at 7:49 pm

    Masses of love to you Leesha <3 Have missed you. Loving the new hair totally does remind me of Emma Watson. I hope you are as okay as you can be <3 xxxx

  140. lauren michelle

    May 15, 2012 at 12:09 pm

    Hey Leesha,

    I’ve been following your videos for years. When I saw the most recent one, I came here, to try to find an entry like this one. I’m really sorry how rough things are right now- but I’m really happy for you in another way- I know there’s better things ahead. In 2010 I left a really bad relationship in a matter of hours- took what I could take and threw it in a storage unit, and lived with my cats in a single bedroom for six months until I was able to get back on my feet. I cut all my hair off at that time too (although I only got red highlights). The similarities struck me, although of course you’re doing way better, as you’re in your own condo. :)  I know a stranger doesn’t have much of a right to comment on your personal life… but I wanted to say that I’m proud of you- for all you’ve done for yourself and all you continue to do. I know it isn’t easy. 

    Lots of love!

    -lauren

  141. Anita Tai

    May 30, 2012 at 6:02 pm

    Leesha, i know you just ended your 7 yr relationship and i need some advice. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 9 years and i feel like it has hit the point i have no more feelings and want to just live my life to the fullest, whereas he is “stuck in his comfort zone”. How do you think I should approach this, he is a nice guy & we had good times; and i don’t want to hurt him but i don’t want to lose myself as well.

  142. Rebecca Brown

    June 8, 2012 at 10:17 pm

    i luv your cats the are adorable

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